I appreciate that phone call. I think I needed it in order to be able to move on with my life, to move on from you. I'm not gonna lie, and I guess I don't need to since you already know, I liked you. And as much as I never wanted to believe it, and kept forcing myself to stop, I couldn't help it. I honestly and truly liked you, a lot. Usually I'd say unfortunately or sorry, but I won't. Because for once I'm not sorry that I met you and that I know you, I don't regret those phone calls, I don't regret reading all those text messages over and over, I especially don't regret 'accidentally' deleting them, I don't regret sneaking you into my house (I do regret getting caught), and I especially don't regret what happened that Sunday morning. And why should I? I wanted it, I wanted it all to happen. Why? Because I liked you. Because I did all that with someone whom I had feelings for. What is unfortunate is that you didn't share the same feelings for me. I felt really guilty about what happened, but then I realized that I shouldn't. If anyone should feel guilt, it should be you. You made that poster, you called me, you sent me those messages, you ran to my house and stayed that late, you wanted to do that with me. And even if you didn't really want to do the last one, you still did it. I am trying, I'm really trying, to move on with my life. I want to move on, I need to move on. I can't allow myself to feel that hurt every time I see you with her. I don't want to feel that sting anymore, that blow to my stomach. Yesterday I cried too much, I don't think I've ever cried that much in school, in front of that many people. I still don't know how you found out about it, but you did. And you wanted to clear things up. You told me you still wanted to be there for me, that you value our friendship. Well I value it too, but I'd value it even more if you told her what happened between us. I know you just want to forget about it, and as much as I'd like to, I can't. I'll never forget it, and it's only fair to her that she knows too. I think what also makes me happy is that you're concerned about my other problem. I would really like to know how you found out about that one, but whatever. The fact that you brought it up shows your concern, and when we hung up I cried again, a lot. I honestly value this friendship. Yesterday I wanted you to graduate and be out of my life. Today I realized I will miss you, and I hope we'll still keep in touch.