2010, Kane, '94 til the present, going wherever life takes me
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Imma do the things that i wanna do
I ain't got a thing to prove to you
I'll eat my candy with the pork and beans
Excuse my manners if i make a scene
I ain't gonna wear the clothes that you like
I'm fine and dandy with the me inside
One look in the mirror and i'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot about what you think

"If you thinking that you know me, better press rewind"

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Tuesday, June 22, 2010


Hmmmmm

If high school could just end now, that would be great.

I need some new friends.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.


I guess seeing you tonight wasn't such a good thing after all. I mean, I know that it's practically been a month since that shit happened, and I know I told myself and you that friendship was more important to me, but I dunno. I was getting over it, getting over you. Actually I was pretty impressed with the fact that I hadn't thought about you in while. But then seeing you standing there, all awkward and what not, while I talked to your friend.......I just couldn't look at you. I didn't want to, because I knew I'd end up missing you all over again. So when you finally said "Hi" and gave me that hug, it just didn't feel sincere. It honestly felt awkward. And because it felt like such an uncomfortable greeting, I was kinda sad. I just wanted to give you a hug, and feel like "ok, yeah, we're friends, this is just like how I greet all my friends" but it wasn't like that at all for me. It made me realize how much I ................ miss you. I do, I actually do. I hate myself for saying that, because I don't want to miss you anymore! But I do, because we never talk, text, or see each other. I mean, you did say you cared about me, and would always be there for me. But for some strange reason, it doesn't seem like we can be like that towards each other anymore. And that's really unfortunate.

Thursday, May 27, 2010
I'm young, I know,
but even so
I know a thing, or two
I learned, from you
I really learned a lot,
really learned a lot
love is like a flame
it burns you when it's hot
Love hurts

Thursday, May 20, 2010


There’s one thing I want to say, so I’ll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I’m not sorry I met you
I’m not sorry it’s over
I’m not sorry there’s nothing to save.

...I'm not sorry there's nothing to save.

I appreciate that phone call. I think I needed it in order to be able to move on with my life, to move on from you. I'm not gonna lie, and I guess I don't need to since you already know, I liked you. And as much as I never wanted to believe it, and kept forcing myself to stop, I couldn't help it. I honestly and truly liked you, a lot. Usually I'd say unfortunately or sorry, but I won't. Because for once I'm not sorry that I met you and that I know you, I don't regret those phone calls, I don't regret reading all those text messages over and over, I especially don't regret 'accidentally' deleting them, I don't regret sneaking you into my house (I do regret getting caught), and I especially don't regret what happened that Sunday morning. And why should I? I wanted it, I wanted it all to happen. Why? Because I liked you. Because I did all that with someone whom I had feelings for. What is unfortunate is that you didn't share the same feelings for me. I felt really guilty about what happened, but then I realized that I shouldn't. If anyone should feel guilt, it should be you. You made that poster, you called me, you sent me those messages, you ran to my house and stayed that late, you wanted to do that with me. And even if you didn't really want to do the last one, you still did it. I am trying, I'm really trying, to move on with my life. I want to move on, I need to move on. I can't allow myself to feel that hurt every time I see you with her. I don't want to feel that sting anymore, that blow to my stomach. Yesterday I cried too much, I don't think I've ever cried that much in school, in front of that many people. I still don't know how you found out about it, but you did. And you wanted to clear things up. You told me you still wanted to be there for me, that you value our friendship. Well I value it too, but I'd value it even more if you told her what happened between us. I know you just want to forget about it, and as much as I'd like to, I can't. I'll never forget it, and it's only fair to her that she knows too. I think what also makes me happy is that you're concerned about my other problem. I would really like to know how you found out about that one, but whatever. The fact that you brought it up shows your concern, and when we hung up I cried again, a lot. I honestly value this friendship. Yesterday I wanted you to graduate and be out of my life. Today I realized I will miss you, and I hope we'll still keep in touch.

Saturday, May 15, 2010
You and me could it be meant to be
Nothings wrong when I'm with you
The ice in me is melting rapidly
Now I'm a believer too

Up all night I shiver with delight

Everytime I hear your song
I can't believe you're everything I need
Mama you can do no wrong

I wish I knew everything it takes to get along

Then we should take it easy or we will both be sorry
Then we should take it easy, take it easy
Or we both be sorry
Let's take it easy

Sometimes I think about what I would do without

Who knew we could be such friends?
Dreaming of your love and warm and touch
When can I see you again?

Up all night I shiver with delight

Everytime I hear your song
Dizzy with anticipation
How's everything coming along?

Thursday, May 6, 2010
Your love, lifting me higher
Than I've ever been lifted before
So keep it it up
Quench my desire
And I'll be at your side, forever more

Now once I was down hearted
Disappointment was my closest friend
But then you came and it soon departed
And you know he never
Showed his face again

I'm so glad, I've finally found you
Yes, that one, in a million girl boy
And now with my loving arms around you
Honey, I can stand up and face the world

Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I have so much homework to catch up on, but Im not gonna do it right now now because I want to write about my life. Really. HA.

This past week has been really good to me. Actually this day was really really good to me.

So I honestly don't think words can express how happy I've been. Honestly. When I think about the last time I felt this way, it was probably in January. Do you know how long that is? 5 months, it's been 5 months since I was really really happy. Wow, 5 months flew by pretty darn fast.....

K, well I just wanna thank you. I'm actually really glad we started talking again. I dunno what made you randomly say 'Hey' but I'm glad you did. Talking (texting) non stop? Haha my dad gave me unlimited text just in time. But seriously though, I can't thank you enough, you've made me so happy already and we've only been talking for like a week. What can I thank you for?
1. Today, probably one of my best school days. The sign on my locker? In front of everyone, yeah, i can definitely say that's probably the sweetest thing a boy or anyone has ever done for me.
2. Thanks for admitting you did it, even though your friends had to leave first... hahah
3. For being completely honest with me, I actually appreciate it a lot. and now that i know how you feel, I feel even better about this situation I'm in.
4. And probably just for making me smile, even when i have loads of homework to bring me down.

I doubt you're ever gonna see this, actually I hope you don't............... but if you do, well then, yeah. Thanks

:)